urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback today is the day..... JUST LET GO OF THE FUCKING WHEEL 30secsandback 2005-11-18T21:21:20Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:7545 2005-11-18T21:21:20Z 2005-11-18T21:21:20Z nine inch nails so im sitting here in the ccsn computer lab just chillin and i thought i should update this thing. well shit happens all the time and it sucks but i tend to get over things. the school years coming to an end pretty fast and im a lil stressed cause im moving in the beginnin of the year and i need to start my plans for college so this should be fun but other then that life is life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:7347 2005-09-20T04:50:04Z 2005-09-20T04:50:04Z deftones yes this is my second time udating lj in like the past year. alot has happen and to makes whings short i had a bf and then i didnt, and a thing with some people but now im here by myself just trying to make new friends. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:7086 2005-08-16T19:20:10Z 2005-08-16T19:20:10Z haha its still here! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:6907 2004-12-24T05:12:11Z 2004-12-24T05:12:11Z ok so it was 3 months and some days but thats still pretty good... for me at least. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:6509 2004-11-10T01:29:17Z 2004-11-10T01:29:17Z almost 3 months and still going.....<br />school haha i laugh at school urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:6334 2004-10-08T03:09:44Z 2004-10-08T03:09:44Z silent <p><font color="#ff0000">life sux only if you make it.</font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000"></font>&nbsp;</p> <p><font color="#ff0000">-you dont "have" to do anything you dont want to</font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000">-your opinions are your opinions.</font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000"></font>&nbsp;</p> <p><font color="#ff0000">-i dont say sorry unless i mean it.</font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000">--------we all say things that hurt some for the better and alot are for the worse.</font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000">--------when i say that im hurt then i mean it.</font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000">--------when i say that im willing to talk then that means that im willing to talk.</font></p> <p>snicker and laugh all you want </p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:5971 2004-08-28T08:22:48Z 2004-08-28T08:22:48Z wine coolers............hahahahahaha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:5799 2004-08-22T03:21:34Z 2004-08-22T03:21:34Z well for those of you who dont know which is like everyone i dont talk to im goin out with someone ..again but dont worry i like him. <br />i also dyed my hair black my mom doesnt like it but wat else is new. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:5409 2004-07-26T02:01:23Z 2004-07-26T02:01:23Z nothin special just work and shit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:5156 2004-07-04T03:44:09Z 2004-07-04T03:44:09Z 7 fucking hours standing at the checkstand! i was not really my idea of fun but who can complain. i was trained today and wasnt supposed to be put on my own till mon but i guess i did good cause now im on my own and i swear that as soon as i went on my own everybody and their freakin mom wanted to go through my line and had some sort of problem.it was gay and im still learning i hate when you have to pricecheck something cause theres a special code for everythin and i dunno it. its gay i wont be able to go to the warped tours but ill live ill probably hang with harlowe and penska maybe i can get them to pick me up at work so that i wont have to go home :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:4996 2004-06-30T18:25:23Z 2004-06-30T18:25:23Z <font color="#3333ff">well i did it i got the job $6.50 an hour not bad. ive got orientation fri 4-5 hours but ill hold out. i cant wait now i just hope that they wont want me to work on sun. i really want to go to the warped tours but its all good ill be makin some money. now all i have to do is get my freakin permit lol yea im workin on that.</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:4785 2004-06-28T02:06:18Z 2004-06-28T02:06:18Z ok i figured it out when i was a baby some evil witch put a spell on me making it impossible for me to have a relationship for longer then a month. wat the heck not even a month. maybe theres something wrong with me like i attract them for 3 weeks and either i unattract them or they're just unattractive to me i just want someone i can have a great relationship with like a friend being able to kid around and have fun but also be able to have a personal relationship with someone to hold and care for........but noooooooo i was cursed. i dunno i think its that im really independent and just have a hard time opening up to people especially guys i guess i just need to be patient and wait for it but i dunno i guess i need to take a break......stupid boys why cant they just be sweet and like me and it wouldnt hurt if they have a mohawk or a lip ring. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:4526 2004-06-27T02:04:48Z 2004-06-27T02:04:48Z <font color="#3333ff">ok its official i was dumped. but hey its not bad on my part cause he had to have his friend dump me on the phone. wat a loser. i guess i learned my lesson on goin for guys younger then me. but its all good im pretty sure that im goin to live. last week was a good week for me i was able to hang out with a lot of people and i got my hair cut its pretty short but i like it.</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:4099 2004-06-20T20:20:22Z 2004-06-20T20:20:22Z <font color="#ff0000">the worst kind if sneezes are when your mouth is full of frosted mini wheats cause its all messy and crap. well today im goin to see my great grandfather and chill with him for fathers day. fucking animals i swear im goin to die in this house because of allergies.i woke up at like 10:30 and then like 2 minlater i was asked to go with my grandma to target it was gay but i went cause im the good grandchild. oh yea and shannon you can have your party here my mom just outta nowhere was like she can have it here if she likes and well help out with wat we can. weirdly my parents have been pretty cool now all i have to do is get them to change my damn curfew!!!!</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:4068 2004-06-20T07:22:46Z 2004-06-20T07:59:03Z when someone says something sad you dont know wat to say other then "im sorry". idk but to me after that theres just a weird silence and then you dont know wat to say next. thats why being in person makes things awhole lot better your able to hug them and be with them. i miss seeing brandon i miss being held and not having to say anything just silence and not worryin about it bein weird just loving the moment. i havent had those in a while i dont get to see him and when i do there are people around. i mean dont get me wrong im really greatful for my friends who take me to see him i just really want to be alone jus to be together. but our last few conversations have really made me like him more. shannon drove!!!!!!she was pretty good to!! !3weeks3days!&lt;/font&gt; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:3763 2004-06-19T01:10:59Z 2004-06-19T01:10:59Z why is it whenever you dont have something you want it but then when you do have it you dont want it anymore? idk wats up i just dont feel like my self. i havent really felt like much of a person for a while now. idk its like i dont feel like doin much but i do have my fun moments they just dont last very long. i was told that i could be really funny and loud one moment then the next im sad or derpressed looking. i dont want to say depressed because not only is it a big word but it seems that everyone uses that as an excuse for their shallow behavior which is gay.shannon said that i overthink things and make things seem worse then they really are and i think thats true whenever i really think about somethin ill think about it more then i should and ill end up thinkin bad things to. i hate feeling this way and i try to fix it but idk i guess ill have to try harded <br />and put a smile on. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:3348 2004-06-17T04:47:20Z 2004-06-17T04:47:20Z drive :( jus chillin with sara with nothin to do. we went and skated at the skate park with harlowe and tyler but they left cause harlowe had a "piano recital" ::coughcough:: but we chilled with ed slade and will they're tight i love my friends. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:3181 2004-06-16T01:05:10Z 2004-06-16T01:05:10Z mexican soda is kinda nasty tasting. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:2917 2004-06-15T06:21:44Z 2004-06-15T06:21:44Z shannon eating and noodles smell funny i dont want a freakin subject its gay!!!!! yes everything is gay shannons gay by the way..she told me so if anyone talks to cody an he wants to know why they broke up its cause he turned her gay an she was cheatin on him with ellena may cruz if this offends you then you can find ellena at the hills park on june 12 ohh crap i guess not you missed her its all good cause i like brandon and we made out in jennifers backseat and i swear that the car did not rock!!!!! im sorry jennifer lol i havent seen him in a long time. so yea lol ook julie is really gullible. but yea overall today was a good day i was able to hang with some old pals and meet some new ones i got to see eddy i havent seen him in a long time i miss that kid. so anyway late urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:2659 2004-06-10T05:34:32Z 2004-06-10T05:34:32Z slipknot its been awhile since ive been on cause ive been grounded for talkin back its so gay ive been so bored the first week of summer break and i had to go and open my big mouth.. i miss everyone soo much especially my bf cause i havent seen him since last thursday and shannon but my mom let her hang out with us today so that was cool we went to lunch then to target. well i almost unded up goin to cali for a whole freakin month this weekend but i decided it wouldnt be a good idea so im just goin for the weekend woohoo the beach it should be cool i get to hang with family i havent seen in a long time.well time to stay awake cause shannon an i are goin to sneak out. shhhhhhhhh. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:2428 2004-06-02T21:56:37Z 2004-06-02T21:58:49Z today is not my day....i woke up late...felt like crap....didnt do my biology study guide...and just dont feel right.<br /><br />if you say your goin to do somethin then do it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:2111 2004-05-30T18:52:08Z 2004-06-02T22:03:00Z yesterday shannon went with me and my family to chucke cheese it was tight there was a gay virtual rollercoaster. then later i went back to her house to watch a movie and im pretty sure that i bugged the crap outta her during the movie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:1889 2004-05-28T06:21:17Z 2004-06-02T22:00:46Z dashboard song stuck in my head(which sux) can anyone answer me why boys are losers?!?! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:1572 2004-05-23T21:50:52Z 2004-05-23T21:50:52Z the red my weekend.....well its been alright pretty interesting. i went on a date that was cool cause we got to see shrek 2. then i hung out that was even better.now im just sitting at home waiting till something interesting happens urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:30secsandback:1392 2004-05-20T23:23:27Z 2004-05-20T23:23:27Z my soothing fishtank dramas gay its just another excuse to fight with people without actually physically fighting(losers)!!!one more day till this weekend!!!for some reason i was really tired then all of a sudden i became really hyper in auto...its the gasoline smell it gets to me.